The 41 Day [Phone] Break

Alright, alright - to start it all, I'm all cool. Still surviving so there's no problem at all. Well, sort of. The only difference that probably happened since I don't know when is that Virus and I are in some sort of break - a phone break...

Well I know it's somewhat cheesy or whatever you call it, but it's actually pretty significant. I think we just reached to the point where everything seemed in chaos and that I thought we needed this. It was actually interesting because midway, I really did surrender and I gave up on everything. It's just I thought that we had just moved on or something. Long story.

All I can say is that there were three phases:

1. Phase 1. Calm down. Obviously, this was the stage where I had tried to calm down. It didn't really work out though. I ended up getting depressed at most times. (3 weeks)
2. Phase 2. "Stay Away From Me". She told me to, so I did. It seemed so easy for V anyway, so I tried. It didn't really work the way I wanted it. It's just hard and impossible to force yourself to forget about something that you consider your everything. The thing is, Lilo ended up becoming my distraction for that little while... (1 week)
3. Phase 3. Learning to Let Go But It Doesn't Work That Way. Well, I played her game. I tried forgetting about stuff and just living my life. It was really hard not thinking of my dear best friend though. At the end, V ended up on the whole not-talking phase when I slept over her place for that weekend. It wasn't a good start, but we settled it eventually just in time. (week 1)
4. Last Phase. Rebuilding that Complete Faith, Trust and Pure Honest While Changing for the Better. Well, 5 days left until our break end. We're actually pretty excited for it. Well, today, we even kind of cheated since we got to talk on the phone... like some other days. The thing is, in these remaining days, I think that we will be learning to have that faith, trust and honesty completely again without any doubts. We might also have to change for the better. We talked about some sort of compromise today, and I can't wait really...

That's all really. It's kind of 3:06 am already. I was distracted doing some other stuff.

I'd better sleep soon because I'm off to some party tomorrow. An S. P. You don't want to know. ROFL!

PS: I can't wait until I sleep over at the Viruses' next week, and then Royal Easter Show with them and a couple of new friends. Holidays!