Well, I couldn't remember much from what had happened last Thursday. All I could assume was that we were talking about this movie night that was meant to be held yesterday. I also found out that I came first for Science, equal to a very good friend of mine. I also got my Maths test result which I got a 100% percent on. It was almost the same in the afternoon, except the fact that I had missed my bus again. I decided to walk my dear best bud Virus to her place to consume some waiting time, but I ended up getting dropped off by V and her dad after they all insisted in doing so.
Yesterday... Oh my - let's say it was like both heaven and hell. There was so much drama in the morning while I had absolute fun in the evening. It was like a total contradiction. GIT! I'd have to say it was a balance though, except that the drama weighed a little bit more...
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Alright, here's the deal. It's currently 5:21 PM, and it's not far until I have to go to church because my auntie will be working tomorrow. I just had a chat with my dear best bud V, and she told me that she wanted to come visit tomorrow to supposedly comfort me about the darned things that had happened to me yesterday. It's pretty thoughtful and kind of her - as always. I'm seriously lucky for her to be there for me. I'm sure she knows I'll do the same for her. Oh well, I just have to ask my dear auntie if she'll permit her to come over while they're gone tomorrow...
Gosh. Anyway, I'll be talking about what really happened later. It's hell - I tell you...
It's currently 8:41 pm, and I just came back to my auntie's house. After church (where I sadistically was pretty much distracted by other stuff) and Hungry Jacks (where I ate Triple Cheeseburger and applied for a job unprofessionally, smiling and giggling most of the times), we basically just went home, ready to watch the marathon in TFC. Of course, I'm personally looking forward for Kambal Sa Uma - as always - but it's still going to show at 12 am anyway.
Going back to the events that had taken place yesterday, I'll start with the fact that my morning was hellish as ever. It was early in the morning sometime almost 8 when my sister decided to aggravate my dear mother early in the morning - a very big mistake. We both should have known about our mother's swiftly varying mood swings, and that one shall expect the worst at that point. It was then an immediate reflex for my dear mother to tell me that I will have to be home by today afternoon from my auntie's place. Of course, I obviously became defensive. This could have only made it worse...
The next thing I knew, my mother was mad - and so was I. My dear mother brought up the fact that I might be lying again and that I'm only going to my auntie's house to meet my friends. I was really frustrated with the fact that she didn't trust me at all! My friends were indeed one of the reasons why I wanted to go to my auntie's house, but it's not the main one. Why couldn't she just accept the fact that I just want to spend some time with my auntie on the weekends? She wouldn't also stop bringing the fact that I lied to her once (I did lie, but I told her immediately that I did anyway) means that I might be lying to her again. Bloody hell, that was that lie I made up for V to make my mother think that she couldn't come to my great grandfather's party because she was actually going out with her man. I hope she understands the fact that I only did that because I knew what she was going to assume the moment she knew that...
The fact that I've been slacking off schoolwork was another subject. My mother completely blamed the whole thing with Windows Live which for her is my main priority every night. GIT! Seriously, I only talk to at least two people online - mainly V or Tazzie - and I only get to talk to them for at least two hours. Why couldn't she blame Facebook? Mafia Wars had literally been distracting me most of the times... GOSH! I know what I'm doing and what my bloody limits are! It's not like I'm failing any subject at all. Sometimes, even getting a 90% is not enough. Who am I, superwoman? GIT!
"You'll be staying over your auntie's house for two weeks" was one of the last sentences before I left for school. By then, I was already crying for the fact that my dear mother herself couldn't understand me. For her, I was still lying and all. I was meant to leave home before 8:30 am because of my bus, but I decided to stay longer because my eyes were bloody red. I can't believe she was throwing me out just like that. My mother thought that I'd rather be in my auntie's house than at home because I supposedly could do whatever I want - which is bullcrap. My dear father decided to drop me off to school when it was already past 8:40... (NOTE: A lot of subjects have been skipped for protection purposes.)
Just when I had arrived in front of the school gates, my auntie called me and asked me: "What have you done this time?", confirming that I am indeed staying at her place for two weeks. Oh, bloody hell! She also told me that my mother was crying - and that basically made me feel worse. My eyes were puffy and red by the time I've reached my roll class; I was trying so hard to hold my tears. The moment I've met up with V, I started to slowly break down again, and she noticed it immediately. Even though I'd love to tell her everything (since we tell each other everything), I couldn't because it was going to make me shed more tears. The fact that my friends - specifically her - were part of the conversation I had with my parents (yes - even my dear father had spoken with me), was just hard for me. When Slexy arrived, she initially thought we were playing a joke, but then it only made me cry more by then. GIT! Their hugs were enough to slow down my tears, but it was just hard. I also promised to tell them what had happened in Recess, and so I did - although not everything. The fact that I keep forgetting stuff is not helping - as well as the fact that I was very defensive over my friends in the argument I had with my dear mother...
In the middle of the day at Geography, I received this message from my mother. I can't remember what it said, but I remember there was an apology that I supposedly "didn't like the way I was brought up" (bloody hell - where did this bullcrap came from?), this whole thing about "regrets always comes last", "we will always be here for you" and "we love you" which broke me down for a minute in class. I should say I'm pretty lucky that I have Ding and Tush to distract my mind every time I'm with them. I also had this headache the whole Lunch. Too bad, playing only made it worse later when I went to Health class...
In McDonalds, it wasn't long until my auntie arrived. GIT! She looked bloody pissed that V even noticed it. I dropped V and her sister off before I had this long conversation with my auntie. I think it took an hour or something close. She asked me if I was really lying - and of course - I told her nothing but the truth. She also told me that my dear mother was just being protective of me in a way that shouldn't be necessarily reached. I totally understood her by then because I knew that my mother was a total good girl who follow all the rules, and that she doesn't fully understand what's happening to me. She's also very used to me being at home always, not going out at all, and that's why it's all new to her. She also told me that the two week break was good for both of us because we could finally have some space (although I still don't get why we need so). There were some other stuff that we talked about, but I couldn't really remember...
Anyway, I went home, showered and dressed for the movie night, realising that I was late. Lucky, V didn't really care (unlike before where she said that if I come after 5 pm, I'd rather stay home and rest my stressed mind) if I was late. The important thing was that I can come. The other thing was that I didn't know that the night was actually going to be a heavenly distraction for me...
I arrived at 6 pm (an hour late); there were a few more people than usual (which is the three of us) and that there were four boys and girls. There were the three of us, V's man, Mini-Virus, MV's man, Steve and Ram (let's just call them this shall we?). I heard that they were actually playing "Murder in the Dark" before I came, so I received this blow in the head when Ram ended up pushing me for some reason that I can't really remember (maybe to scare me or something). I couldn't help but laugh really. I think we watched random shows in Foxtel - from wrestling to some random movies - for at least an hour before we decided to play "Spin the Bottle". Nothing much really happened, except that I did something first time in my life (it was actually again repeated twice later - LOL!) so expect me to remember this day for the wrong reasons! Jokes, but seriously. We went in and out V's room, doing whatever and having fun. I'm not going to elaborate more, since you don't really need to know. It was unfortunate that our curfew was at 10 pm...
Trust me, mate - it was awesome as ever. V planned to hold it again for the next week, and I can't wait! I just hope there's nothing else to be held that week because one of the house rules that I have to follow is that I can only get out for like a day. At least, that's something. I'm not complaining...
Nothing much really happened today, except the fact that I got to go shopping at Fairfield Showground for our trip to Snowy Mountains on July. My mother was there, and it was pretty awkward for both of us. We barely spoke to each other, and the only thing was she said was "when are you picking up your clothes?" and "try on this parka that I bought for you" the whole time. Oh well, after that we went home and got ready for church. Before going to church, I also got to talk to V who actually waited for me to be online for three hours (I left her a message when she was mowing her lawn or something)...
Anyway, you know what's next - church and then Hungry Jacks. Nothing much happened after that except that my dear mother left my auntie a message, asking how I was. I replied to her, telling her that I miss and love her. She replied saying that she misses me too and that I hope I enjoy my stay at my auntie's and that "do it your way". I swear - when I got to call her, I told her she was crazy
Not long ago, about 10:30 pm, I called V because - apparently - she's receiving my messages very late like after a minute or so. I don't know for how long we've talked, but we actually missed each other online. We're probably so used to talking online every possible time, and it's just different for now that my auntie has the older version of Windows Live. Oh well, I hope we get to meet each other though. I still need to ask both my uncle and auntie though. I might be writing a letter to them for consent...
Anyway, I'm off now. I've been here for like a few hours. It's already 11:21 pm and my marathon will be starting in half an hour. *crosses fingers, hoping that her uncle and auntie will allow V to come for tomorrow*
PS: Sorry about this post. I know it's very long. LOL!
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