GIT! Screw this and everything! Why is this happening to me? When can this bloody cycle end? I feel like I'm going to throw myself into a fiery furnace and basically burn myself to end this torturing pain I'm feeling right now. GIT! I swear, I don't know what to do anymore!
My dear little cousin from the Phils chatted with me (we're still chatting now actually) and brought me one of the worst news of the day. He broke the news to me that two of my closest cousins are going to move to Manila permanently. I couldn't really react properly since this little cousin of mine was making me laugh while making it worse, reminding me repeatedly that I will never get to see them ever again...
These two cousins of mine were not really close to me in my childhood since we were quite distant in a way, but I've gotten to know to a lot better last summer. I had got to share moments with them and love them more than I ever had, and I just don't understand why this is happening to me! All I could basically do is cherish the moments I had with them, especially those times when we go home at 7 am from Marby's, partying at MO2 and eating at this sidestreet place after Marby's...
This absolutely reminds me of the time when an old friend (who was new to me at that time) told me in Hiligaynon - my language - that "Why is it that when you just got to know a person a lot more better and learnt to love them, that's is when they leave you?" through a goodbye letter before I left the Phils almost three years ago. This is bloody sad, but I can't do much - can I? Gosh.
The point is that my loved ones keep leaving me every single time! I'm not even going to count down how many people had left me. Yeah, yeah, yeah - they all have their reasons, but I'm just wondering why it's like that with most of my closest people? GIT! I'm not even going to talk about this anymore. I feel so stressed and aggravated that I'd probably just piss off for now. *cries uncontrollably*
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