What a Depressing Day to Start a New Term...

Well, before I even begin this entry. I would just like to notify that it was only the first part of my school time that was depressing - not the whole day. It was just the first part of the morning, we had to go to these food stall group for our Multicultural Day next week which almost bored me to death. The fact that I was still depressed about the whole grounded thing and that it worried and perhaps annoyed Virus in a way. This resulted for me to decide to stay in the library both Recess and Lunch. I didn't want to leave her of course, but I felt like it was best for her to stay away from me at this time because I know she hates it when I'm like this. I made sure she was with someone of course. I can't just leave her like that; I'm not like that...

Well, luckily, I get to spend time with Mini-Virus the most of Lunch, and that's when I started to feel a lot better. I realised that all I needed was someone to talk to. The thing is, V had been dealing with stuff with other people, so I couldn't really get to talk to her. I couldn't explain how I felt a lot better after getting to tell her everything. Well, I trust her as much as I probably trust her sister, so I was pretty much comfortable with telling her whatever was on my head. In the last subject, History, I also won a Mars bar from answering a question which was cool I guess. Everything went smoothly after school. We went McDonalds as usual, walked them somewhere close to their place and then took the 4:48 pm bus...

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Sorry about the intrusion again. I had to turn off the computer because my new curfew is at 9 pm. It's currently 4:53 pm at the moment, so you could say I'm really late...
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... That was my mistake. I got home at about a few minutes passed 5 pm and I knew by then that I was in trouble again. My dear father told my mother, so he snitched on me. I was pissed of course, so I continued on my hunger strike and not-going-out-of-the-room scheme. I got to talk to V which was awesome, but I don't think it was any productive because I think we didn't even get to talk properly. LOL!

Besides that, I got addicted to Texas HoldEm Poker while I'm starting to drift away from Mafia Wars in Facebook. I was really good at first, and then I started to lose all my money. Oh well, after losing everything, I got to talk to MV for a while until she had to go because V wants to use the Internet. We didn't get to talk again properly because I think she was busy and all. The fact all she did was ask me this Maths question and didn't even answer my simple interrogation properly just made me go lose it in my head, so I went off MSN as soon as it was 9 pm and let all my aggravation with everything on writing...

But it was really surprising when it was about 10:30 pb or something, my father shocked me by giving me back my phone and my IPod back! GIT! I swear I was so happy that I immediately texted V about the whole incident. A few minutes later, unexpectedly, she texted me if she could call me urgently. Of course, I was going to reply to her, but before I could, she already called me. As I've expected, she called me just for the sake of calling. LOL! It was kind of hilarious because I was hypo the whole time. We ended up talking for almost 15 minutes until I decided to go to sleep. She did text me once more after that about something else somewhere at 11:45 pm, but that was it. I texted her once more and told her to rest her clouded mind and get ready for tomorrow... I didn't get to sleep until 1 am though... LOL!

Now, I've Done It!

If you have predicted that I got in trouble because you've noticed that I haven't posted for a short while, you're right. Well, bloody hell, I'm not going to make this long because I am forbidden to go to the Internet...

Well, what happened yesterday was that everyone, except me, bailed on the party that Virus made. It really pissed her off, and I couldn't really blame her. If I was her, I could have reacted worse. I ended up coming at 5 pm, just to make her feel a little better, but I kind of failed in the sense that I knew I was boring her in some way. On the contrary, it was very cool meeting V's brother. He was absolutely funny! We did eventually have fun (well at least I did) at the end before my dear mother had to interrupt when she called V's phone.


... Bloody hell. This is when all the trouble started for me. I don't know how it all started, but all I know is that my dear mother was furious about the fact that I didn't stick up for my word about going home at 9 pm. The thing is, she said something about "do you want to sleep there, instead?" and I said "yes" - of course - because I would love to anyway. V's dear mother already permitted me anyway. Well, it made my mother more furious. By then, V agreed on the fact that I should go home because she knows that I will get in trouble if I won't. The problem was that her dear mother had just started talking with V's brother online, so no one can bring me home by then, until V's father saved me. I really feel bad that I keep giving them too much problems. Heck.

As soon as V and her dad left, my mother gave me this sermon which lasted for an hour, repeating the same stuff about being irresponsible and not finishing my work. I swear, I was trying so hard to keep it down until she decided to ground me again. Bloody hell. Seriously, can't they do anything else but ground me? I feel like she's getting out all her anger and stress on me. She keeps saying how I've changed and all, but the thing is, she's wrong. I was like this before I even came to Australia - maybe even worse! I usually go home from school at about 5 pm, meet up with my buddy, go biking until 8 pm, go home again, do whatever online until 12 am, do homework until 2 am (or sometimes longer) and wake up at 5:30 am. Bloody hell. Is that my fault if she wasn't there at that point of my life? Seriously, she should consider facts first before she start throwing jibes at me. Like seriously.



Then, worse things happened. I'm not even going to mention them. I got my phone confiscated from me, as well as my IPod. I'm also banned from MSN and a lot more other stuff. GIT! You know, sometimes I wish they could just shut up. Seriously, they think they know everything and all - that they know what's right. Bloody hell, I know they're usually right, but now, they are just making assumptions. For example, they assumed that I failed most of my stuff in school when I passed the whole thing with an award!

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Pardon me, my dear mother had to stop me writing on the computer because my curfew went down to 9 pm. Nice eh? GIT! I'm just really annoyed now; I have reasons. Before, I tried my best to not get annoyed, but this time, it's just over the line. I'm losing everything for no reasonable reason! What the heck is this all about? Bloody hell. This is just too much for me now...

It's currently 6:45 am, and I woke up at about 5:30 pm. I don't think I've slept for eight hours, although I think I'm close to that because I don't feel sleepy at all. Anyway, I have to hasten this up before I have to get ready for school.

Oh before I move on, a random fact: I had this weird dream when I kissed this guy who I don't even have a clue as to who it is. It's kind of hilarious now because I actually got to kiss my sister on the lips the day before. LOL! I dared her to do it, and I didn't think she would anyway. I was surprised when she did that I started laughing in this very weird manner. ROFL!

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You know what? I'm sick of this. This is the first time I'm going to play their game. I don't care if I'll get sick or die or whatever anymore. To tell you now, I haven't eating anything yesterday for the whole day. Well, I did get to eat something late at night when I sneaked for food - cereals. It was enough for me for a day, but I'm starting to feel really weak. The fact that I have double Sports today will be a challenge. The only thing that I could consider as a good distraction was the fact I got to talk to Mini-Virus and then V. Bloody hell. I swear, I could have gone crazy with all the work yesterday, being secluded in my small bedroom. LOL! That just reminded me of how desperate I was just to have my phone for the last time, so I will be able to text V and say sorry that I couldn't go online because I was in trouble. Oh well, what could I do? Hopefully, this whole thing don't last.

I'll be off for now. I'm just not in the mood to face my mother anymore. This is just an abomination. Too much. I'm not going to tolerate this in some way. If she decides not to talk to me at all, I'll live with that. It's not like I couldn't last. It's her fault that I'm viewing things with her in a very different perspective now. It's her fault...

Procrastinating to Party

Alright, I know I didn't bother posting anything yesterday, but it's not really my fault. Plus, there is nothing you call interesting that happened anyway. The only hilarious thing was that Virus and I finished our Vodafone-to-Vodafone free calls which was like 150 minutes for her and 60 minutes for me. LOL! She still ended up wasting her credit at 1 am today when she wanted to know if her number was showing on private. Another thing is that we have the party today, and if I can't finish my English stuff, I wouldn't be permitted... so I'm actually rushing it. I actually got to finish four out of six texts, even after getting distracted with talking to V from 8 pm to 12 midnight (which is also the time when I had to close the computer).

Now, it's probably pretty obvious of what I am doing now... my work of course. I'll try my best not to get distracted this time. I know I can do this. I procrastinate every time anyway. LOL!

That's It, I'm Don't Care About Anything Anymore!

Listen. I'm really not in the mood to write really long. Nothing significant about me really happened today, so I'm not really going to blabber about stuff you don't even care about. Besides the constant calling of Virus the whole day and downloading videos from YouTube of my old friends, I didn't do anything at all - not even doing my school work...

Getting back in track, I spoke with V not long ago. This particular conversation made me realise how stupid I am. I realised that I have neglected my self needs by thinking about other people too much and by not sleeping appropriately. Bloody hell. I don't know what to say anymore. Here's the thing, when something is wrong with someone, I share their problems. When something is wrong with me, I don't give a damn about it. I worry too much for other people - just like now - when V decided to put herself into this thing. GIT! I'm going to stop talking about that... because you know what? She's right. I should forget about my family, her, my other friends, and everything else. I should take this advice that she gave me this night. I feel like it's the only way I could get my mind off things. I just don't know when though. All I know is that I need it as soon as possible...

Anyway, I'm sleeping early today. I know, eh? It's bloody early, but I can't break promises. I promised V that I will be sleeping at least at 2 am today. She and Slexy might be coming over tomorrow because we have to talk - just the three muchachos. I might be watching Kambal Sa Uma before sleeping though. I don't know. It's just something to get my mind off something I guess, since the whole "I'm getting away MSN" didn't really help...

I will also have to help Jo with her speech still. Well, I finished helping her with half of it now (11:50 pm), but I think she still needs more help. LOL! Oh well, she loves the thing that I wrote for her. Wee! Too bad, I have to go now though... parents! GIT!

I Agree, It's Harder Than It Looks

Alright, before I start, I'm just going to say that I am dead bored. I have been doing nothing since the time I've woken up. I would say I am lucky that Virus didn't get to call me. It's not because I don't want her to come over or something - in fact it's the opposite. I love having her over since I actually miss her anyway; I think I got used to talking to her everyday. The thing is, I have a feeling that I am still grounded. I would not be allowed for friends to come over here. Plus, the fact that I haven't even finished anything properly is a big no no for my part. GIT!

Anyway, here is just some random game that I stole from my dear old friend's blog. It's just something to get me off my boredom of being alone and trapped in my bloody cold room...

Rules: It's harder than it looks! Copy to your own note, erase my answers, enter yours, and tag twenty people.USE THE FIRST LETTER OF YOUR NAME to answer each of the following questions. They have to be real...nothing made up! If the person before you had the same first initial, you must use different answers. You cannot use any word twice and you can't use your name for the boy/girl name question.

1. What is your name :

Chanelle

2. A four Letter Word :

Cool

3. A boy's Name :

Christopher (Slexy's brother's name... LOL!)

4. A girl's Name :

Charlotte (I so love this name)

5. An occupation :

Cartoonist (Something I know Tazzie would do)

6. A color :

Cyan

7. Something you'll wear :

Capris

9. A food :

Chicken!

10. Something found in the bathroom:

Conditioner

11. A place :

Canley Heights (Please stalk T for me... jokes!)

12. A reason for being late :

Can't be bothered doing anything... as always!

13. Something you'd shout :

Can you please piss off, dinggit?!

14. A movie title :

Charlie's Angels: Full Throttle

15. Something you drink :

Coca Cola

16. A brand :

Chanel... something where I've got my name from... LOL!

17. An animal :

Cat

18. A street name :

Charles Street... I've never been there, but I did check the net... LOL!

19. A type of car :

Convertible

20. The title of a song :

Collide - Howie Day

Alright, I need to stop now. V just texted me and she wants me to go MSN. My brain just got fried from answer this even though I actually cheated. LOL! Oh well...

Please, Don't Leave Me!

Wow. This day went really fast. All I remember is the fact that I was woken up when I heard my phone fell down. Apparently, I forgot to switch it back to my normal settings from Silent. Virus had tried to call me a few times before it fell down. It was like 12:50 noon, and I was still very sleepy. When I attempted going back to sleep though, she called me again, hoping to me prank me by using the Private Number, I suppose. Too bad, I knew her and her sister's voice well enough, so they ended up calling my home phone after they asked for it... Everything was hilarious!

I played my part of the prank by picking up the phone and giving it to my sister. I started cracking up when she thought that V was actually someone who was looking for her. She ended up giving my mother the phone after I rejected to receive it while I was still cracking up. Eventually, my dear mother did realise that it was V on the phone... she ruined the fun - but it was still hilarious! We couldn't stop talking about it even until the evening. LOL!

I couldn't sleep after that. I think you guys already know about the whole "I can't sleep when I'm awaken" anymore, but yeah. V told me to go online later when she comes back home after she went somewhere, but she ended up bailing on me because she wanted to sleep - and I was actually happy with that because I wanted to sleep too. The funny thing is, I found out that neither of us slept when she called me again somewhere in the late afternoon. Instead of sleeping, I actually got to finish some graphics before I got to talk to her. There was this new order I have to make, and I don't think it turned out really nice - but I did try, you know. (Click here to view: Avatar 1, Avatar 2, Avatar 3 and Signature)

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Alright, it's currently 1:53 am, and it's because my dear mother actually busted me. In other words, she found out that I'm still awake. Darn it! Oh boy, I really got in trouble this time...

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Well, it wasn't long until I had to say goodbye to her though. My dear mother was furious because I still haven't found my glasses for two days already. I got called "irresponsible" because I wasn't doing my school work at all. She ended up calling me not long after just before she had to go Taekwondo. Not long before she sent me this devastating message about the fact that her parents wants to move somewhere really far. I initially thought that she was moving to Victoria or South Australia, but then I realised that it was somewhere in Sydney, and that she's remaining in the same school. I was very relieved; I swear I could have cried. I seriously don't want her to move far away from me, just like my old best friends. It was alright, I guess, because we will be moving too anyway...

The thing is, I threw away the oppurtunity of going to a better school because of my best bud's presence. If they just disappear, it feels like I've sacrificed my own future for nothing...

When I was waiting for V to go come back from training, I finally get to start on my Geography Assessment properly. I eventually got distracted by her 20 minute call though which was absolutely fine by me. I would rather talk to her than do anything else related to school. LOL! She had to go eventually though - pretty early. She might as well come here tomorrow (it's today actually) to finish our work. I have a feeling that it is not going to happen though. I just got introuble, remember? If she still plans to do so, we might have to do it in Monday. We can't do it in Sunday anyway because we have the party that day. Well, that is if my dear mother permits me. I think I will be allowed if I finish all my work before the party. GIT! More stress for me.

Besides this, I was very happy to get to talk to my old best friend (who had been my close friend since I was three) when I was younger. You could call her Jo. She apparently needed some help for this essay for the Ateneo de Manila University, and I kind of helped her before my dear mother had to make me go sleep by then. Oh well, I miss her - of course. She'll always be my first and longest friend. That's never going to change...

That's it for now. I might download some videos for my IPod again. Bloody hell. I don't care anymore. I think I'm already grounded. GIT!

You Know It's Useless For Me to Do Work When I'm Not In the Mood

Alright, I just woke up at 3:10 pm, which is exactly (or at least) 1 hour and 17 minutes ago when my dear mother arrived from her interview and exam which she aced. Not long after that, I got to talk to Virus that her parents were not there, so she is not able to come unless someone picks her up. Slexy, however, still has to ask her mother about coming over, so I am not really sure about that for now. The only thing was that it wasn't long after until my dear parents started ranting about the fact that I haven't done any homework and all, and that I just keep procrastinating. Can you blame me if I'm not in the mood? Bloody hell. This is not a new thing. I've been doing this since I was a little kid, and I still pass with flying colours...

Well now, after V called me, I think she felt really sorry that I haven't started at all that she wanted to help with my work. Oh well, it was kind of a bargain because I offered to help her with her Geography Assignment while making mine too because I love helping her anyway. For now, I still don't know if they are still coming over, but I love the fact that they were considerate enough...

GAH! I just hate these bloody school work. I guess I'll have to do them now, if I want to be free before school starts... I hate this. GIT!

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Update @ 12:49 pm (of the next day): Alright, I have to admit that things didn't go as I had expected it. First of all, my dear best buds did end up coming here... at about 6 pm though. Secondly, I didn't do any work at all when they came, except for copying down the questions to answer. Thirdly, I actually had fun in when they were over here. Fourthly, I'm just stressing about school now.

Well, the thing is, V still wanted to come even though it was already 5 pm, but she didn't have a ride because her parents were still out somewhere. It was luck when S agreed on picking up V from her place to come over here and study. Well, they both came here at about 6 pm. I was very happy to see them, of course. I think it was only S who was really doing her work because I still didn't have the drive to do it while V was almost finished anyway. It was really unfortunate for S to leave early at 7:40 pm though, and I was actually scared that V was leaving early too. I was actually absolutely happy that she decided to stay. I hate being alone and bored in my room anyway.

We still didn't do our works at that point, and I wasn't sure what we really did. We also went to Hungry Jacks when V was getting hungry at that point. I think we ended up watching some videos while she ate, and then I wasn't really sure what happened next. All I know is that we had a search for my long-lost glasses and that we had that brawl/slapfest that we had last time as well. It was mainly because of fun this time though. It was only until she had to leave at 10:30 pm when we had to stop. LOL! I think she wanted to sleepover, and of course, I would actually love that. She didn't actually mind sleeping with me on my double size bed, but the only thing was that my sister sleeps in the same room as me, and I don't know how she would handle that. Bloody hell. I just can't wait for me to have my own room when she moves to that smaller room near the kitchen...

Anyway, she said she might have to do the whole psychotherapy thing... Bloody hell. I don't really mind, but the thing is, I just don't want her to think I'm crazy - get me? She said something about being more open with them and trust them. The thing is, I really do trust them more than anyone in this world, but what if I'm just scared that they think I've lost it. GIT! I don't know anymore...

Well, it wasn't long until I got to talk to Mini-Virus and then V again. I was also absolutely happy to get to talk to this old crush of mine when V persuaded him to talk to me. I swear - I hate her asking him to do so because it's so obvious that I actually like him, but I love her for the fact that I actually got to talk to him for at least an hour. WEE! I swear I couldn't thank V enough. I also got to talk to MV for a while when V decided to sleep because she had to go somewhere at 7 pm tomorrow. MV followed to sleep not long before I started writing this update...

Anyway, that's it for now really. I'm not really bothered writing much for now. I finally got to start my Geography Assignment when V got to leave because I actually found that push that I was looking for. Plus, I have to finish my work as soon as possible before she comes to my place on Friday... I think. I hope she forgets the whole psychotheraphy thing though. GAH! Now, I'll just continue with my school work until I faint to sleep. LOL!

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Update @ 3:31 am (on the next day): LOL! I didn't even sleep yet. I ended up spending time with my dear sister, working on these few graphics that I made for an order. (Here they are: Avatar 1, Signature 1 and Signature 2.) I actually wasted my time doing this instead of my school work. GIT! Oh well, I had fun...

Now, I'm just off to download some videos for my IPod... *evil laugh*

Snowy Mountains Expedition DAY 3: The Obscured Last Glimpse

Yes, yes, yes - I did die the second time today when I woke up at 7:50 pm. It took me 15 minutes to stand up, and the only reason that I had the power to do so was because my dear mother keep bugging me with "Didn't you want to go home early?" quite a few times. I was also complaining with the coldness the whole time. At about 8:20 am, we finally left and I was absolutely to catch on sleep. Too bad, that I had to be interrupted when we stopped over a McDonalds in Goulburn at 10:30 am. I was still very sleepy, so I didn't even bother eating the food that they bought me. Two hours later, I woke up at when we were already in Liverpool where there was this motorbike accident. I was lucky to know that the one who had an accident was alive. It really freaked me out though. There were police and all those crap. GIT!

I was just very happy to arrive at home at 12:50 noon. I kind of felt sad that I didn't get to see much of the places on the way and back here. I was mainly asleep 99.6% of the road trip. Oh well, I didn't really care that much. I just ate the McMuffin breakfast meal that my parents bought for me and moved on. I just don't like the fact that, now, I have a stiff neck and an aching back. It hurts... GIT!

I eventually got to talk to Virus a couple of hours ago or so before she had to leave for Aldi with her parents. Apparently, she might come here later or tomorrow, so I'm quite excited. I miss her a lot, as well as the others. I was also very happy to get to talk to Mini-Virus half an hour ago or something like that before MV and her dad went to V and her mum.

Oh well, I guess I would have to wait for an answer now. I still need to shower at the moment though. I've been writing for three hours straight already... and bloody hell, I seriously need to start on my school work... GIT!

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Update @ 3:46 am (of the next day): Well, a lot of things had taken place in the little time I've decided to call a rest. I didn't expect some few stuff to occur all over again - you know...

Well, V didn't end up coming today, so that means I'll see her tomorrow - well, later actually - and Slexy might be coming too. I got to talk to her for half an hour when I tried to waste my 50 minute free calls for her. Well, it was worth it for me because I really did miss her, but I guess I just bored her with my boring voice. If the others were only Vodafone. V was lucky to find an old phone of hers, so she has two numbers now in which the new one is Vodafone. I also got to talk to MV again until a few minutes passed 12 am before my dear parents sent me to bed.

Of course, that didn't stop me. At about 1 am, I went back and V was still on. She was indeed busy, so I decided not to bother her and simply watch Kambal Sa Uma with my dear sister. I eventually got an argument with V again in the middle of the marathon. It was my fault - as usual. I just can't control myself for some reason. It really disappoints me that I can't even do much. We are indeed fine now, but I still pissed and annoyed her big time. I'm just the worst "best bud" one could ever have. I wish I could say one more sorry to her, but I feel like I'm a worthless piece of crap... GIT! Seriously, all I do is cause sorrow and pain...

Anyway, the Kambal Sa Uma is getting really interesting now. It's just weird to see how Ella - currently known as Venus - turned into a one bitchy protagonist while she was the one who used to be the victim. Vira - on the other hand - turned into this angel-like person. It was like the twins had switched social status. It was squee-worthy to see Gab subconsciously fall over Ella. It was heaven to see Celeste - Gab's aggravating antagonistic mother - go crazy while Ella continued on her gradual revenge. I feel sorry for Lolita though, seeing her watch Ella kind of go out of hand with her plans of revenge. I absolutely loathe Dino still; he just gets my nerves when he chooses not to listen to Vira. GIT! Seriously, he just pisses me off...

An hour ago or so, V texted me, saying she's sorry and all of those again. You know - I really feel bad that she actually is saying sorry to me for no reason. GIT! I called her, of course, although I didn't get the chance to say sorry because both of our sisters attacked us. Apparently, my noise irritated my sister while she was trying to watch the marathon while V irritated MV when she was speaking. It was kind of funny that it actually took us a little too long to hang up the phone. LOL!

Anyway, I really need to sleep now. I haven't been sleeping properly for a while - not having at least 5 hours of sleep a day. My parents are getting really worried. I'm just going to watch these new videos that I added in my IPod, and then, I shall have a good old rest. Plus, I don't want to sleep too late, especially if people are coming over later... LOL!

Snowy Mountains Expedition DAY 2: Snow Isn't As Good As You Think, Especially When It Attacks With Frostbite

I was right of course. I did die when I woke up at about 8:25 am and ate noodles for breakfast. The next thing I knew, I was red - a thermal, red shirt, red jacket, black parka, black-and-red pants. LOL! We left about 9:05 am to go to a nearby gas station and then leave for the Snowy Mountains. The next thing I knew, I fell asleep...

At about 11 am, we finally arrived at Perisher and all I see was the whiteness. Bloody hell. I never saw anything mostly white before. LOL! I was still very sleepy, but I was ready to have fun. By 12:05 noon, I already went snow sliding twice, and I stacked my last one because of a bump. I also had an almost frostbite when I had my coldest hand temperature ever. At about 12:25 noon, I almost stacked it again and then got my foot stuck. At about 12:40 noon, we arrived at the eatery after walking. We waited quite a long time for the food because it didn't arrive until 1:05 pm. It was worth it at Gingers though. Their food was quite delicious, although it was pretty expensive in my perspective. After finishing eating at 1:25 pm, my sister and I directed to make some snowman which lasted for almost an hour or so and a little snowball fight with my sister. I'd tell you now - the snow hurts like heck... By 2:30 pm, my parents decided to go home because it might be dangerous if we go home late because the trip is an hour long and the road was quite narrow and slippery.

On the way home, I tried to watch Bruce Almighty, but I failed. I fell asleep not long after until 3:45 pm when we reached home. I still slept again until 5:30 pm. As soon as I woke up, I started eating my dinner - KFC again! At 6 pm, I was eating plain Kit Kats this time while semi-watching a Justice League movie. Ten minutes later, I got really bored so I just texted Virus. At about 6:30 pm, when I reclaimed the dvd player, I watched 13 Going On 30 while still eating. The fact that Thriller by Michael Jackson (R. I. P.) showed up again cracked me up. Until now, I just can't believe that I still get to see the King of Pop's songs. If you know what I mean. It's been almost a month - you know. There was also this character, Matt, made me smile. Don't ask why. Maybe it's the past. Maybe. It quite reminded me of some stuff - maybe, that's why. LOL! At about 6:40 pm, V texted back. LOL! It was about 8:30 pm when the movie finally finished. Bloody hell. It was absolutely nice. I even had to have a rerun of the movie until 9 pm because it was that nice for me. That nice!

At about 9;05 pm, I had a shower until 9:40 pm. Well, I was distracted by some sort of thoughts, I guess. I'm sure that happens to most of you too - you know. I started watching the special features of The School Of Rock movie at about 9:45 pm, but then I ended up watching most of the movie until 11:45 pm because I'm kind of a music freak. The movie is hilarious too - you know. I immediately decided to watch Princess Diaries again because I didn't watch it properly the last time anyway. I love that movie, so it was really worth it. When the movie sropped at 1:45 am, I still wasn't sleepy, but I didn't really know what I wanted to do. I looked for some food, but I can't find any, so at about 2:05 am, I ended up watching Bad Santa which ended at 3:50 am. The movie was quite good in the sense that there was some lessons there. It was bloody hilarious too... But that's it for my last night. I brushed my teeth and went to bed, still thinking of some random thoughts before I slept.

Of course, I knew I was going to die the second time the moment I wake up...

Snowy Mountains Expedition DAY 1: It Was Nothing More Than a Movie Marathon And Total Exhaustion

This is actually hilarious because I may have remembered everything (well, at least most of it) that had taken place in this two-day trip to Snowy Mountains. How, you say? Well, every time there's something interesting - even just the slightest bit, I write them down on my phone, like it was something that I keep track with. You can't really blame, can you? My memory is as bad as the memory of a goldfish...

I woke up at about 8 am, two days ago, only having three hours of sleep. GIT! I swear I could have died from sleepiness at that point. I only took my two teddy bears - Marš and Levera - and my IPod, not caring whatever I've left. It was cute when I placed my two teddy bears in a seatbelt. LOL! My sister got annoyed at me though because she thought it was kind of waste of space. At about 8:45 am, when we were just about to leave, it was very nice for us to find out that one of our little rabbits died. What a nice event to start the day, eh? *sarcasm*

At about 9 am, we ate breakfast at Hungry Jacks where I ate the same food as before when I came to Blue Mountains with my dear best buds. I had some hash browns this time though. Mum also kind of found out that I slept very late that day, except that she didn't know what time. At about 9:40 am, we left to go to Neeta City to buy some food and credit after they skipped buying me some for a month or so. We passed by Slexy's place on our way... Random, much? At about 10:25 am, we finally left after they almost forgot buying me some credit and having some navigator problems.

By then, after a few minutes and after passing Virus' place, I fell asleep. I had to wake up at 1:45 pm when we stopped over somewhere I have no clue. I was too sleepy to bother anyway. I slept again and woke up at 2:45 pm at the Nebula Motel. I immediately rested of course. The place was alright. It has a little place, but there was cable television - I think - so it was fine. As we ate some little snack, I got injured while trying to kiss my sister. LOL! She just hates it when I do that. She scratched off a part of my skin, so ouch!

We walked to KFC and arrived there at about 3:30 pm, after encountering this black dog that scared the heck out of us. It was funny though. Not long after, I realised that we were actually staying for two nights - not one - so I got really pissed off. It was probably a misunderstanding, but bloody hell, I had other stuff in mind. I ended up texting my three best buds just to ask how they were and all. If you know what I mean... We didn't get to eat until 4 pm because there was that much people. After eating for 15 minutes, we walked to Ski Co. to hire some pants and boots and buy some cute beanies...

We eventually decided to go home and stay there instead of going to Snowy Mountains at that time because it was pretty late. I just rested after that and watched Spongebob Squarepants. I eventually surrendered watching it and turned to this new portable DVD player that my parents bought in Neeta City. At about 5 pm, I decided to watch Supersize Me since I never got to finish this movie before. After watching it at about 7 pm, I immediately told myself that I am banning myself from eating at McDonalds for a while. I could hang out there, but not eat. I don't think that stupid rule will last though. At about 7:30 pm, when I decided to watch I, Robot, my sister was already asleep by then. While I was watching, I had a lot of distractions - and I'm not complaining. I received a text message from V at about 7:30 pm and another after ten minutes. Ten minutes after that ten minutes, she called. LOL! I actually miss her a lot - you know. At about 9 pm, my dad also called, asking how we were because my parents went out to a pub of some sort. At about 9:30 pm, the movie finally finished after those fun distractions. I was looking for food until my parents finally arrived at about 9:50 pm. We decided to watch Hellboy at 10 pm, but I wasn't really paying attention because I didn't have my glasses on, and I was eating anyway. It was actually the longest time I didn't have glasses for a day. Guess what? I love my parents when they're drunk because they are so bloody funny. They were like dancing around and talking like little kids. LOL! We also ate some mint Kit Kats which I loved so much because I love mint! It's probably because it's green. Just joking. To be honest, I'm not really sure...

About 10:55 pm, I decided to watch The 40 Year Old Virgin while eating some cheeseballs and coke since no one was watching Hellboy anymore. The movie ended at about 1 am, and it was hilarious! I ended up watching trailers from old movies like Spiderman 2, 50 First Dates and those others from the You Got Served dvd until 1:15 am after brushing my teeth. At about 1:30 am, I made a run-through of The Princess Diaries and The Princess Diaries 2: The Royal Engagement, also watching the deleted scenes of the first one. Oh I also cracked up when this line, "They're smitten, while playing badminton. Where's my kitten?", came up because Mini-Virus used to sing this song before. LOL! At about 3:45 am, my whole movie marathon finished. I knew by then, that I was going to die with sleep deprivation when I wake up...

Temptation Always Gets the Best Of Me

As you may probably know, I slept at 7 am today (well, yesterday if you want to get technical). I wasn't that sleepy at that point, and I basically forced myself to go to sleep because I still had to go somewhere in the same day. It was an unfortunate thing when I got woken up by people from church when they called me on the phone at about 11:45 am. At that point, I wasn't bothered doing anything so I slept again. Too bad, Tazzie called me at 1:30 p, shocked to find out that I was still sleeping by then. We eventually concluded to the fact that I will be going to his place by 3 pm, and so did I.... after taking another half an hour rest. LOL!

Anyway, I arrived at T's place at around 3:30 pm. Oh boy, I was very happy to see my dear buddy. We talked music for a short while before we started playing with Halo which I really sucked with. It took me a while to get used to it because I never ever played with Xbox, since I'm more of a PlayStation person. Eventually, I got the hang of it, though I still lost to him. However, when we started playing Top Spin, I beat the crap out of him. LOL! It didn't take me long to adjust to the game, especially that I'm a very big tennis fan. Tony Hawk's Pro Skater 4 was the next stop. It eventually made me miss Virus and Mini-Virus (even Slexy because I got to play with her even just for a while) because it was the same game that I played over their place when we had the sleepover. I miss them a lot at that very moment. Counter-Strike was my next conquest. Even at an expert mode with Z-Bots, I still managed to have 100+ kills and 19 deaths while the second highest only had 40+ kills and 30+ deaths. It was unfortunate that I had to leave by 7:45 pm. I really had fun, even though it was mainly all games. Time went very fast, and that proved I did have fun... I missed church though. GIT!

Before we went home, we dropped by Coles to buy some stuff I can't really remember. We arrived home at somewhere at 8 pm, and I turned to eating. I didn't get to eat anything the whole day - except for a banana before I left for T's house - and when my dear mother mentioned Pizza Hut, I started to feel the hunger. I should have said "yes" when T's dear mother asked if I wanted some pizza. The thing is, I wasn't hungry by then... but now, I was.

After eating heavily, I checked my Yahoo Messenger if V or T was online, yet there was no sign of them. I didn't use my Windows Live because I didn't want to break the discipline that I made yesterday. It was for them anyway. Not me.

At about 9 pm, I started playing Mafia Wars in Facebook again. Twenty minutes later at about 9:20 pm, V was online, and I realised through her display name that she's planning a party on Monday. Well, I was happy to see her in a party mood. At least, she's well distracted. If you know what I mean. Ten minutes later, I decided to start on my sister's ordered graphic. Apparently, she's loves my crappy work, so she keeps ordering. Five minutes later, at about 9:35 pm, I got a text message from V. She apparently thinks I don't want to do anything with her nor MSN. Well, she's wrong. Gosh. I knew she wasn't bothered reading my email at all. She also told me she misses me. Of course, I miss her too. DUH! I wouldn't be going on and off Yahoo Messenger if I didn't.

At about 10:15 pm, I did it. I signed in Yahoo Messenger as "Available". Bloody hell. It was an accident - sort of. I was trying to make sure that V received my reply to her text message, so I wanted to send her a message, and then just sign off. By then, since she said she needed me, I decided to go to MSN. It's an exception to my rules anyway, so no rule has been broken. We only got to talk for about 15 minutes until she had to sign off at 10:30 pm. We talked about random stuff really. She went to S's place today and hung out with her, played and talked - according to V. She said she apparently misses me, so she made the party on Monday. I don't know if I'm even going to be there, so I don't know. I still would want to see her and the rest of the gang though. I miss them - duh! I also got to talk to MV for a short while...

By 12 am, I finally got to finish my sister's graphic. After thirty minutes, V went online and we talked for half an hour before I had to start pretending that I was already sleeping. Apparently, my parents wanted me to sleep early because we were going to Snowy Mountains at about 8 am tomorrow. But guess what? I'm not having enough sleep because it's currently 2:39 am now. Who cares? I'm sleeping on our way there...

At about 1 am, when everything seemed safe, I went back to the computer. I was lucky enough to have V online still. We had some few talks about some important issues. Her sudden weight loss was a worry for me. Even if I am not a doctor, I know that it's not good when such phenomenon happens. Apparently, I found out that she and S were actually talked about me, worried. They are worried that I've been being really down and depressed lately. V even offered to be my psychotherapist on Tuesday. I don't know if that's even going to happen though. She'll eventually forget and get distracted with some other stuff. If you know what I mean. At about 2 am, she bailed out. I was actually surprised to see her to be online that late. The last time I saw her online for this long was on the last holidays where we decided to play games and just talk out of boredom...

Now, I don't know what to do really. I'm not that sleepy yet. I know I'll be dead tired later when we travel to Snowy Mountains. I don't care really. LOL! I'm such a bloody insomniac... and a lunatic too! GAH!

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Update @ 4:13: Wow, I only got like less than four hours of sleep until we have to go to the Snowy Mountains. Oh well, at least I finished this graphic that took me more than two hours to meet with the guidelines... but GIT! I seriously need to sleep. This habit is so not good anymore...

Goodbye My Virtual Communicator, Goodbye Windows Live

Bloody hell. Just as I thought my day would finally go by fine, things had always to veer off from what I thought it would be. It's getting annoying. Well actually, I am too. You know why? I've been annoying people lately with my constant mood swings and bad attitude. The fact I want it to stop so desperately makes it worse, because I can't do much. It's like an outer force controlling me or something...

One thing that cracked me up today was the fact that my sister recalled this incident when I used to hug my old dear best bud tightly when we used to go motorbike riding. You don't want to know why it cracked me up, but I should say I really miss that friend of mine. That friend introduced me to a lot of new stuff - mainly rebel stuff though...

At about 7 pm, my sister persuaded me to watch this 10 minute video from YouTube. Yes, yes, yes - you got me. It's a video of Michael Jackson - a part from Living With Michael Jackson. I would say that my sister is still not over Michael Jackson (nor am I - I guess)...

At about 7:40 pm, I finally get to finish this graphic that my dear sister ordered from me. Somewhere at this point, I also got tempted to go online to check on who's online. There was no sign of Virus nor Tazzie anyway, so I just decided to sign off...

At about 8 pm, people from church called, telling me that they didn't get to call me ages ago because they got my name mixed up with someone else. They told me that I might be practicing with them tomorrow, but I don't know because I have a feeling I won't get to wake up early. It's currently 1:35 am - you know. I got distracted with stuff. I also got to watch this so-called "Twilight Extended Trailer" which cracked me up big time. Watch it and you'll see what I mean. *wink wink*

At about 8:35 pm, I played Mafia Wars in Facebook while I started talking to T. It was about 9 pm when V finally went on, and I thought she had a party without inviting me. I actually felt bad, but of course, I was happy for her in a way. She deserves some happiness at the moment anyway. Not long after, I felt bad appearing offline while I was getting really tempted to talk to her, so I finally went online. She eventually talked to me and told me that there was no party at all. I also told her why I was appearing offline because I can't lie to her anyway...

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Sorry about that. I had to take a rest because my parents just arrived somewhere at 2 am. They think I'm already sleeping, so I'm just taking advantage with the fact that it's not 4:01 am, and they're drunk asleep.

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I got into this argument with her again, and that's why I was getting pissed at myself. I seem to start them every time, and I am starting to feel really awful for her a lot. This is one of the reasons why I decided to do this whole "goodbye MSN" thing. I don't want her to suffer through my uncontrolled stupidity. It wasn't long until we went fine though - as usual - but that doesn't change my final decision. I know she's getting really sick of this whole drama, so I'm coming to stop this whole crap...

I was very happy that I got to talk to MV from 12 midnight to 12:45 am. At least, she actually made me smile. At the same point, I was actually trying to this sort of long email to V, just saying goodbye from MSN for a while. It's pretty stupid because I'm making a big deal about something really small. I don't think they would really care or even notice anyway. It's just I think I will really miss them a lot. I talk to them everyday literally. It's very hard to stop something just like that you know. V went off at about 1:30 am or something, and so did I.

At about 2 am, my parents arrived from Smithfield RSL, so I improperly shut the computer down. I obviously pretended that I was asleep while I actually played with Klondike for almost two hours before I continued writing this entry.

Now, I just feel like finishing this graphic that my sister ordered again. GIT! The thing is, I don't care if I get sick at the moment. Who cares anyway? No one...

I just can't wait to go to T's place tomorrow. I really miss him. He's probably the only one who could distract me from insanity. Screw the meeting with the people from church tomorrow. I need my sleep before we go Snowy Mountains - you know...

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Update @ 6:23 am: I'm not even close to being sleepy yet, but I know I have to sleep. I just finished the orders that my sister made, so I'm quite done for the day. (Click here to view the avatar. Click here to view the siggy.) I know they are not good, but I tried. I always try...

Anyway, that's all for now. I hope I get to fall asleep the moment I lie down. I really lack sleep, you know...

Staying Away Is Seriously THAT Hard

Today has been fine. I woke up at about 1 pm, going directly to the computer to check if Tazzie replied to the offline message that I sent him yesterday. I know that I was not meant to go MSN, but that was the only way to talk to him anyway. The bad thing is, I got tempted to talk to Virus because I actually miss her already. It wasn't long though. I ended up ruining my plans, but I told myself that I wouldn't go back online anymore if it was not important. I concluded my conversations with two of my best buds with having this hang out with T tomorrow and basically saying my last goodbye to V for the week. I know I wouldn't only get to talk to her for two days, but it's kind of hard - you know. On the other hand, I got to finish another graphic that was ordered from me. I actually got V to check it out because I know she loves Hilary Duff. I actually made that an excuse to talk to her. LOL!

Anyway, I haven't been doing much since then (which is about 2 pm - 3 pm) but write on my blog. Bloody hell. I have to start on my English assignment now. I don't really know what to do now anyway. I'm abstaining from going to MSN and talking to my best buds. GIT! I seriously don't know why I'm doing this to myself. GIT! I'm going to go literally crazy.

It's Simple: When You're Down, I'm More Down

Alright, I still can't recall everything because I'm like a day late in writing this entry - but who cares? I'll still give it a try...

Well moving on, the next thing I knew, it was morning when I realised Virus already woke up. She said she had a nightmare about her man or something like that. Not long after, I think she directed to do some whatever stuff the moment she took my IPod away from me so I could sleep. I know it was about 9 am at the point because she mentioned it later. After that, I finally slept until almost 1 pm, getting ready to go to the movies to watch Harry Potter. The only thing was, no one was bothered watching movies anymore because we - the four of us - were just hanging out in V's room, doing whatever fun stuff. I wouldn't tell you now though because you would probably think we're crazy people or lunatics...

I felt bad in a way though because I told my parents that I was going Luna Park, but that didn't really happen. My dear mother eventually found out anyway because I was stupidly enough to say that we weren't in Luna Park yet at about 2 pm and then I said that we just arrived from Luna Park when she called at 6 pm. I was lucky that she didn't get angry at all. *sighs in relief* V kind of had a bad time because something bad did happen with her and her man. I immediately remembered that nightmare of hers, and then the fact that I mentioned I felt like it wasn't a good time to go to Luna Park this day before in a previous entry. Maybe, this was why. I felt something bad coming... GIT!

Anyway, we hung out until about 6:30 pm when S had to go somewhere with her family. It was unfortunate of us because one of S's cousins chipped his tooth while we were playing in the park, so we had to go early. We ended up watching Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince without S which was kind of sad because she didn't get to watch it with us. To make my night worse, V was being emo the whole night, and her vibe was affecting me in a way. It's one of those times when whatever the people who are surrounding you feel, you feel the same. I know deep down inside she was still hurt, and I tried my best to make her feel better, but she's basically pushing me away. Not literally though...

The fact that the movie cut off a lot of parts that I wanted to see pissed me off big time. Overall, it was still nice though. I love the comedy that they added into it. LOL! Those times really cracked me up big time... but hey, I don't want to spoil you all who didn't watch it yet, so I'm not going to make a whole page review at the moment...

I went home at about 10:30 pm after being dropped by V, Mini-Virus and her mother dropped me off. I immediately took a shower because I started to feel really stinky. I ended up talking to V and MV before I slept though. I said farewell to them for the fact that I won't be on MSN for a while. I know I'm stupid, but I feel like this is the best way to go. Plus, I'm still on about that whole "you're going to get sick of me" thing. The remaining days of the week will perhaps be the only time that I will not get to talk to them. Literally. Plus, I think V wants to be alone at the moment and be emo, so I'm certainly not stopping her. I don't know why I'm doing this really. I just hope this is worth it. I miss them a lot already. Seriously. It's weird and hard, trying to stop something you've been doing everyday now. *sniffs*

Anyway, my dear mother did mention that we will be going to the Snowy Mountains this Sunday. I'm kind of looking forward to it. At least, it will help me bring my mind back. At least, they're going to have that break from me. GAH! Seriously, I'm going to miss talking to them a lot. Bloody hell. I ended up staying up until 4 am in the morning, just playing around with my IPod, trying to sort out things in my head...

There's Nothing More to Hate Than a Change Of Plans

Alright, I should make this fast because I will be going somewhere. I would just like to say that yesterday was one of the worst days of my life. I don't know why, but it is. The only good thing was that I received my first genuine kiss on the cheek from my sister yesterday, so I was very happy... but other than that, nothing. It was mainly all crying and all those crap...

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Alright, this is going to be hard because I can't remember much. I had to leave somewhere because Virus and Mini-Virus decided to go somewhere at about 4 pm of the previous day. Now, it's about 11:39 pm of the next day, so I'll try to remember whatever I can.

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I could recall Virus waking me up at about 12 noon with a phone call. I remember it was something about her getting ready to go out and all. I still wanted to sleep by then because I slept for only like 5 hours, but I ended up getting ready for the sleepover. The only thing was that something got cancelled out, so I got really pissed. I can't really blame myself because the thing I hate the most is the constant change of plans, ruining everything... though I don't really think that was the reason that I was really pissed. This is just not my week. If you know what I mean. I just feel like everything is going out of place. It sucks...

I think I decided not to go anymore because I was getting really weirdly annoyed. I just wanted to get away from stuff. The fact that I cancelled out on Tazzie for nothing probably annoyed me the most. I don't know. I can't remember much. I slowly calmed down and decided to go to V's place and sleepover after Mini-Virus begged me to. Oh well, even though I may refer to her as my "cousin", but I actually find her more like a sister... so yeah. I was still annoyed though. I actually cried a lot that time. I think I just couldn't handle the things that were happening to me anymore. The fact that MV actually cried to V, saying that she was very sad that I wasn't coming made me cry more. What could I do? Bloody hell. What happened to that heart of stone? It's going nowhere. All I do is think about the others... but who can I blame? No one. It's my decision to do so anyway...

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Alright, it's currently 4:04 pm - two days later. I'm really delayed, so I might miss a lot of stuff this time. Pardon me, but I keep getting distracted. LOL!

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Anyway, not long after the whole drama, V decided to go to Liverpool just to get mind off things. I agreed, of course, since I love spending time with her anyway. The only thing is, when I finally arrived, it was late, so we didn't get to go there anymore. We just went around Fairfield, ate at McDonalds (where the manager - I think - realised that I was actually featured in the Fairfield Champion newspaper with Corey Payne) and went around Neeta City. Not long after that, we went to the park close to the Fairfield Swimming Pool Area where we hung out until 7 pm. It was actually pretty fun, especially looking at the stars. I hated the fact that there was this argument between the three of us again. Bloody hell. They're neverending now - you know. Well, my story is I got annoyed because they keep changing plans again, and it basically just pissed me off. This wasn't my week, and it was just getting in my nerves. I surely feel bad now about how I acted, but before - I didn't really care. I was ready to get home by then, but at the end, everything went fine... I think. There's more to the story, but I'm not bothered retelling stuff I can't remember and don't want to be remembered.

When we went back home - well, V's home actually - while we were waiting for Slexy to arrive, we just did some whatever stuff that I can't really remember. I remember that it was fun though, but I just can't remember. By 10 pm, S arrived, but then I had to leave to MV to help fix her computer from malwares. It was like after an hour or so when V got really impatient that she took me from MV's room while I was still waiting from files to be scanned (and playing Playstation 2 as well - Tony Hawks). Well, I decided to go because I felt bad that I left both of them alone in the room, bored. We ended up playing with Bratz for a while and did some fun stuff that I can't remember much. The next thing I know, at about 12 midnight or 1 am, we (mainly them, because I wasn't even sleep) decided to go to sleep...

It was hilarious, since after half an hour of lying down, while I browsed my IPod, playing Klondike as usual, V decided to watch Devil Wears Prada because she couldn't sleep. I wasn't really bothered watching, so I decided to just continue playing with my IPod. At the end, I wanted to watch, but I wasn't really bothered getting my glasses anymore, so I just surrendered on it. Not long after though, V decided to sleep, so I just decided to rest my eyes too. I actually felt sorry for her because I think I used her as a pillow to hug on the whole time. The three of us slept together on a queen-sized bed, and it was still quite comfortable in a way...

The thing is, I can't remember if I even slept. The next thing I knew, it was morning...